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Week of September 13th 2020
So for this weeks project I had a bit of trouble. This week was actually one of the worst in all my personal life so OF COURSE that negative energy found its way stubbornly into my schoolwork. It was the day the project was due, and I was coming back from a visit from my hometown. I had minimal work done on this animation, was very stressed out/ traumatized from dealing with all the... lovely things that my hometown had to offer and was just praying that I could numb my mind for a bit and animate a little tadpole swimming to forget my issues. But it always seems that in your lowest times, the universe works against you just to humble yourself and keep you on your toes. So OF COURSE it would only make sense that Harmony would decide to crash two hours before midnight!!!!! :) I was at a point in the semester that I still had some dignity to not leave canvas empty handed, so I make did with some help from a youtube video and attempted to animate in... Photoshop??? I... honestly don't know what my sleep deprived brain was thinking. At least got my key frames figured out while making this??
Anyways, because I was already late on this, I didn't even give my full effort in the project after I did manage to get harmony working the next day. I'm a bit embarrassed of the final outcome because of its choppiness. The body was animated on 3's because 💤I was tired of my existence at that point lol💤 but the tail was animated on 1's (reasoning because I just hate myself I guess??)
Jokes aside, this week was full of necessary learning experiences, both in my personal life, for this class, and also for animation too. I learned that I cannot be too reliant on computer to do the things they, ya know, are programmed to do (go figure). I thought I had learned my lesson when dealing with especially difficult programs like the dreaded MAYA, but alas, that's just what you're supposed to expect as a digital artist. I also learned from an animators stand point, that no matter how many exercises I do of pendulums, I always find a way to make it difficult! Difficult might be the wrong word but I always think it'll be a simple ordeal and then overthinking a part of the animation to the point I end up confusing myself. There were so many times that I accidentally started animating the sequence backwards on itself!! It was frustrating, but eventually it got done. And finally, in my personal life I had to learn to just simply let go. There are so many things out of my control in this world, like Harmony crashing or even a lover moving away to pursue their own dreams. Of course these uncontrollable things can make you feel bad and helpless, leaving you stuck wondering what you could've done to take the reigns, to make things easier for you so you won't have to feel... helpless. But that's just the nature of the uncontrollable: the sublime, gutting feeling that you won't be able to do anything with your humane powers to start up a stubborn software or make them change their mind about staying. The only thing you can do is push through and let yourself fall vulnerable to the waves of the unknown. You have to find alternative rafts: Photoshop or even agreeing to just stay friends, to at least give you a sense of false hope even if its only a temporary fix. But eventually things will fall back into place. Harmony will always start up again (when it feels like it lol) or when you gain enough courage to talk to your now ex again. Things always find a way in their own time and its only in your control what you'll do while your waiting for that to come.
I hope the posts after this won't be as wordy or revealing... cuz YIKES
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